See I have an issue

Why is it that when I’d hide what I’ve been through

My mind cries out

“Damn this is that bitch who…

put me through the ringer,

but admits to truth
to try to correct her ways, I’m tight but her humility still seems to amaze”

“This that bitch who…

abridges and extends grace looks evil in the face and still smiles a smile that don’t spell shame”

“This that bitch who…

once cloaked her hazed patterns in lavender, until she felt tricked by the numbers on the calendar and trance-like sways”

Yea I could pistol all my pain and not care, whip and blast it, cast it away, recoil and shoot, relaod, pollute

But I prefer the target at the 4 wall range booth of my room so I could really turn that shit loose,

And if I share it to the only one who won’t change how they view me, He’ll say you gonna witness some ugly before you get to the cute

Tuh, what I been through

I get it for testimonial reasons and

each trail comes with a season

When I get setback too far speaking my old tongue, like some Elizabeathean

I see then, Isn’t the point of the cycles I go through bring about completion

I’m just broadening the strokes, no spirals, I’m just concreting the rewiring of my mind,

Oh Lord it’s time

I get why this is my story

I can’t lie I got tired of keeping score, please God let me find the light in your glory. Hold me tight

“Quarry is your thoughts that hold gems waiting to be found,” he told me

Not a sore piece that drips aloud , echoing tiresome replays of the old days and the old you that knew no better

Don’t forget her, Warm that cold gaze

In your growth phase, that’s still you,

I bet the new suit you stepped into,

sat around in that closed space

The dark makes deals In the cellar where I thought I’d sell her earth that buried hopes and dreams in a mold case

Tried to turn the core of me into an old faith

But no matter the version of me, I was unmoved, refused to part and said

Nah my soul stays,

Broke ground and pieced the fragments, now I carry my whole weight

See my issue

is when I don’t hide what I been through

My mind sighs but what if eyes can’t leave my scar tissue

Shit long as you respectful, then i won’t have to diss you

I finally made way for the new mode that I switched to

Take it as part of my very own “that bitch” proof